Et tu, Brute?Edit

OK, so before I start I should probably let you all know that I had a part in Doc's departure. I feel I owe you all an explanation for why I did what I did, that kind of requires explaining my history on this site (you can skip this part if you don't care). I haven't been on this site for that long (for about 5 months), not as long as some users but when I did become a member of the glee wiki I feel in love with this site and it's users. And everything was good for a while (at least to me it was good, I commented and debated and discussed like the rest of you and I enjoyed it) then I noticed somethings started to change. One of my friends had gotten admin and she did a really amazing job. She was one of the most dedicated active admins on the site, but unfortunately some anons (this was back when anonymous users were still allowed on the site) thought that just because they weren't users the rules didn't apply to them and were really rude to her. It made me really mad, no one should be treated that way for doing what their job and trying to make this site a better place. So even though it wasn't my place I took it upon my self to help enforce the rules, I just wanted to help tbh.

Then I applied for the Spam Team and I saw that you had to be active on chat to be considered for the job. Now at that time I had only been on chat once and, through NO fault to the users on that night, I felt awkward and out of place (I'm just an awkward person) so I didn't get back on chat until that day. I was the only one (even more awkward >.<) on until Doc came on. She PM'd me and told me that she had seen that I had applied for the Spam Team (I'm gonna call it ST from now on) and had noticed me meddling (XD) and thought that I was right for the job. I was grateful, I really was, and I promised that I would do my job to thee best of my ability, and I did. After a while Doc made me Chat Mod (CM) too. But once I was in it was like my view of the wiki had changed. It wasn't as carefree as it was before. I had a lot more responsibility and I took it seriously. And, like so many do, I craved an admin position because despite the admin's best efforts they weren't on when I was so I sort of felt helpless when some anons/users decided to act up. So after a couple of weeks Doc informed me that several users had nominated me for an admin position. I don't know if that's normal but I felt truly humbled and I felt like I was doing my job correctly. So Doc made me admin and I continued to do my job to the best of my ability.

After a while some things changed, there were more rules to enforce and more people fighting them. Some days it was hard, and some days it was easy but we got through them together and I was grateful for my friends and family on this site. But it got so bad that one of our Bureaus quit and it made me really sad but I understood (it was during that "On My Way" fiasco). I felt like I was constantly at war with the users over something I didn't personally believe in myself, but if it was hurting users I wasn't going to put them at risk because I didn't agree, so again I did my job. And things were stressful and we were missing an bureau so Doc made me the replacement (I don't know if I truly deserved that position yet). So as you've seen Doc essentially gave me everything that I have on this site. So why did I betray her? (Because that's what I did, I betrayed her) Like I said I felt like I was battling the users over something I didn't fully believe in myself and I was too afraid to say anything but I tried. It wasn't getting better and it came to the point that sometimes the thought of logging on to this site made me physically ill and I didn't say anything but I considered leaving several times. Then I was approached with the opportunity to take back the web site and help restore it to it's former glory. So I made a choice, and it wasn't easy it took weeks to come to terms with it. But I didn't know who to trust so I went with what my gut told me was right. I started off just like a lot of admins and users, just another member who loved this site and it's users. I just felt like it stopped being about the users and more about the privileged and that's not what I signed up for. I feel bad but I don't regret what I did, even though I probably lost a lot of people's trust. If I regret anything it's making some users feel unsafe in not knowing who to trust; that wasn't my intention but it was something I anticipated, and all I can say is if you're one of those people who don't feel like they can trust me I'm truly sorry.

The FutureEdit

OK, so that was my mini wiki biography. If you didn't read it good on ya XD. Right now I'll admit it's a scary time. Things are changing again, big things and sometimes I don't feel like we're truly close anymore. Again understandable with the way things went down the way they did. But like I said I only took part in this because I wanted things to change for the better and I wanted the users to feel like they had a say in the way this wiki is run. In terms of rule enforcement I can't really promise to do anything I haven't been doing before. I'll still try my best to be objective and do what I feel is right for this site. But I want to make this more democratic. I want people to be able to voice their opinions and help make this wiki function. I've done the "Listen to us or get out" method, all of us did, and don't get me wrong a lot of the rules are in this best interest of the wiki and I don't want them to change (for example being stricter with where we get sources, this wiki is starting to get it's credibility and that's a good thing) but I want there to be a wider range of opinions and more votes into how we do things. One person can't speak for everyone, and it's not right to silence everyone's voices. Hopefully with the Admin board we can even the playing field a bit. But in order for that to work we need leaders who care just as much about the site as you and can be objective. We have a lot of amazing admins already and some not so amazing and I'm hopeful that their pasts will speak for themselves. And that the users will be able to truly tell who has their best interests at heart. Again, this isn't a popularity contest and don't be afraid to vote the way you feel because everyone here has a right to feel safe and that they're cared about and that's what the admins are here for.

Your ChoiceEdit

I know for some people I'm the ideal choice for one of the 3 head bureaus and that's what I'm running for. And I'm going to be honest again: I'm scared. I don't want things to end up the way they were before and I'll try my best to make you proud if you vote for me. But because I don't want things to go bad if I get this position as bureau if at anytime I stop doing what's right for the site you guys can vote me out and I'll gladly step down. You guys shouldn't have to suffer because I've lost my mind.

So that's why I feel like I should be one of the 3 bureaus. If you vote for me do it because you truly feel I'm right for the job not because I'm your friend or you like me :P And in return I'll do my best not to let you down.

Also if you're one of those people asking me about important decisions regarding the wiki (like for admin positions, or jobs), please stop. It's not up to me, those kind of things would be up to the board (or at least the other admins would have a say) which hasn't been put into place yet so things will remain as they are for the time being. Right now I'm only in charge of the Spam Team.