Hello everyone. Yes, my Heyy is gone for now. I'm just not happy anymore.
Now, today was supposed to be the day that Glee A New Journey would start, with me promising it would be up either today or sometime last week. That did not happen Gleeks. Why? Well, here's the explanation.
Noone knows this.....but I am suffering from depression. I have been bullied since last year in Grade 7 because of my weight and my looks. To be fair the guy saying this was fatter and uglier than me, but it still burns. He caused me to become emotionally distressed and extremely stressed, along with emotionally abusive to myself. I consider myself unlovable and not talented because of him, so instead of standing up for myself, I threw myself into writing by making myself a fanfiction account and one on the wiki. I have gained some self confidence because of, well, you guys and how accepting and kind you are, but this Friday that got ruined.
On Monday, I told the bully to go to hell and finally told a teacher about him. He got suspended for 4 days, but he showed up on Friday to ruin my life. He got on the bus and started cussing me out, calling me multiple names that I don't think would be accepted by the admins. He then turned to me and told me that I should kill myself since I am worthless and I have no future what so ever.
To some this sounds like no big deal, but to someone who has either been bullied or is emotionally damaged, it takes you to a dark place. So dark for me, that I considered suicide. Yes, I almost decided to grab a bottle of Tylenol PM's and swallow them done with a glass of water. Luckily I didn't and I'm still here, but it has shook me to the core. The fact that would consider such a thing is so freaking stupid of me, especially since I know who I would hurt if I did kill myself. But that is now in the past for me, and now I need to focus on gettign through this year, hence why I'm putting Glee AJC on hold.
I am sorry to those who were eagerly anticipating this, although noone probabl was, but its for the best. I need to just get through this last month before I go to a different school and restart my life. I need to focus on getting help and sorting out my problems. I have to focus on that, hence why I'm stopping writing my fanfics for a while and why I may not be on the wiki that much.
I hope you all can understand this and that you will accept me for who I am. Thank you for the support. Good bye for now.